Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice.
As many of you know I lost my father last week. 88 years on this earth is a long time, but God graced his family and friends by allowing him to be with us that long.
In truth, God saved my dad 3 times before he took him April 29 from possible death over the last 30 years. Each was a miracle and dad bounced back resuming his witty sense of humor while recovering each time.
4 years ago we almost lost him after major surgery that placed him in ICU with a 3 day window of life or death. Remarkably, once again he awakened defying the odds that even his surgeon did not expect. Not only did he survive and struggle to regain his independence, he did it with a clear mind and his satirical funny side. He was a lifeline of upbeat drollness giving the hospital and recovery staff a daily lift. And then he brought it home.
Dad was a product of consistent prayer and faith he and my mother had for their 64 year marriage.
I write this post as a tribute to both of them for their love for each other and the stable foundation they gave me with God in the center.
The thought of losing him during that time 4 years ago was not on my radar. Literally, I fell apart. Coping with daily life became an emotional drain which landed me in my doctor’s office full of anxiety and panic. My doctor and her nurse are dear friends of mine. Understanding my inability to move forward we addressed the issues.
Once it all set in I knew it would take more than therapy and Lexapro to arrive at a place of accepting the inevitable even if God gave me a few more years with dad around.
What I discovered over the last 4 years challenges the phrase, “We can never be prepared to lose a loved one or a friend.”
In my next post, I want to share with you God’s provision, comfort and supply he gave me to not only get through dads passing, but exceed that which only God can do in us. I even surprised myself.
I beg to differ that we can be prepared for the death of anyone.
To be continued….