God and I were having a conversation this morning. We do this quite often. As sick as I have been this past week He reminded me how many years ago I was without hope. The details are not my goal here; the importance of God, his word and how he goes about his business are.
Many of you may find this silly or ridiculous but if you read my blog posts you will know I have found God has a great sense of humor. You see, I learned a lot about God in the bathroom.
Now I am not talking necessarily about the “throne.” Partly God’s throne, not ours. Ours just isn’t comfortable. However the seclusion, quiet and often colored walls have served as a classroom.
As I was saying before you so rudely changed my course there, many years ago I would lock myself in the bathroom to escape. My circumstances of which I got myself into became a hole so deep I had no idea if ever, I would be able to get out.
One nice thing about being in the bathroom is that when you are climbing the walls, crying out to God you have plenty of toilet paper to wipe your tear covered face. Make sure you buy soft bath tissue if you plan to try this. It is better on your skin.
God met me in that particular bathroom quite often. At the time, lacking in my present knowledge of God’s word, (only my fault) would have greatly increased my faith and lessened my fitful anxiety. But as a stubborn human I of course went about everything backwards until I found myself alone with God in the bathroom. I don’t recommend my course of action but if you have to do it, find a nice, large bathroom with a jacuzzi tub in it. You have more room to climb the walls, space to lie around on the floor and when you are all done you can fill the jacuzzi with hot bubbly water and soak yourself into oblivion.
The effort was to figure out how I was going to get out of the mess I was in. Seeing no way out I cried out to God over and over. Had I known then what I know now that God always has a plan for us even when we don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel I might have handled it all much better.
A gift God gave me is the gift of “knowing.” The Holy Spirit enlightened me that even though I did not know how, when, who, what or where I was going to get out of this misery, a deep inner thought that I would get out gave me hope. This “knowing” has in many instances given me guidance of which way to go or not to go. It has been a forerunner to doors that opened after I was given a word or a thought. Sometimes it comes as a warning.
For you skeptics, this “knowing” is so powerful I embrace it as God speaking to me profoundly. Once it occurs, you will not change my mind. The phrase,
“I know, I know, I know” stands firm in my heart to the point I have been ridiculed, laughed at and dismissed as “I just don’t want you to get your hopes up if it doesn’t happen.” Get behind me Satan.
In that bathroom, Ephesians 3:14-19 gave me the “knowing” I needed to trust God to rescue me. ” For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ.”
Had I listened to the skeptics instead of my heart, I might still be climbing those walls. Had I allowed unbelief in, I might have missed God. Opening up my heart to really hear God’s word, apply it and live it made all the difference in my survival until I was released.
God is faithful. God is faithful. No one will ever be able to tell me God’s words don’t work. These words are memories of freedom for me. Whenever life gets tough, or overwhelming, God pulls out his Tim Tebow black/white pen and writes these memories for me giving me assurance that if He rescued me then, He will do it now.
I am wondering. Do you think Tim Tebow would let me borrow his pen? There is something miraculous in it.
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